When I got the position with Ringling Bros Barnum & Bailey, I decided that seven weeks out of the city would be a great way to take some time to reevaluate without getting caught up in the day-to-day hustle of my normal NYC routine. I always make lists of everything I want to accomplish, and have some pretty epic to-do lists, but nothing gets done. Most of my time is spent just trying to figure out what needs to get done. So with this much needed break, I decided it was finally time to figure it all out. And since it just happened to be at the end of the year, the timing was perfect for creating a plan for the New Year.
My achilles heel has always been the fact that I like to do everything, and I’m very driven about everything. The result is that I’m always busy, always booking something, and I never have time to get bored. Great, right? Well, yeah. But also not so great because I never have a plan. I submit and audition for everything, and then take everything that I get if there’s any way at all to fit it into my schedule. The downside is I never have time to really sit down and evaluate what’s working and what isn’t.
Enter 2015! This is going to be the year that I start to focus and really start thinking about quality over quantity. Depending on who you asked, in 2014 I was an actor, vocal coach, composer, musical director, organist, choir director, administrative assistant, singer, photographer, teaching artist, and tap dancer. On the outside, it looks pretty damn impressive; I photographed celebrities, accompanied Broadway stars, acted in a short film that went to Cannes, was on a TV show, and sang in an ensemble at Carnegie Hall twice.
If you look closer, though, I had a little involvement in a lot of big things. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not complaining at all; I still get giddy thinking about it. But I’m spreading myself too thin. If I wanted to stay at this level, then I’d be set. And it’s already a level I never thought possible. That being said, I want to climb a little higher.
If I really want to succeed, I think it’s time that I put more effort into fewer things, into bigger things. While I’m having a blast playing serial killers on Discovery ID, it’s not going to go past that. No one at Carnegie Hall, except for my roommate, knew I was there. And while it’s not about recognition, what I’m getting at is I would love to have a bigger involvement in something, take it to the next level. And in order to do that, I could either create a couple extra days in the week, or I could free up some time but eliminating some things. And I’m guessing that the more feasible thing to do is free up some time rather than creating some more.
I’m almost done creating some rules for myself which I’ll write about later. I think the key for me stepping things up is to see how far I can push myself with a plan in place. I already push myself pretty hard right now, but I’m pushing myself in way too many directions that I always end up back where I started, which is wacky state of sleep depravation and confusion. Don’t believe me? Talk to my roommate.
Anyway, it’s after midnight and one of the things I’m trying to change is my sleep schedule. I’m a night owl but I also work long days so I end up not sleeping enough and from the second I wake up, I start counting down the hours until I can go to bed, which is normally around 18. So I am going to voluntarily go to bed and wake up with enough time that I don’t have to sprint out the door and see what happens.
Off to bed!